Whew! After almost two years I all of a sudden decided to start this blog up again. I won't even begin today to tell you what all has happened in these two short years.
I do know this that my life has totally been upended - not in a bad way - but upended all the same.
Maybe I can use my blog to find my way back again. I don't know what "back" is anymore but I do know that I am lost.
I think if I could be content with a life that just lets things happen each day then I would be fine. But I can't. Life is too short. I still want to do something - it's just that I don't know what that is yet.
I had a good thing going with my dolls and then slowly it twirled away from me.
When I see pictures of dolls I love I get the burning in my heart to create again. So it hasn't left me completely. I just have to find a way to return to that place where I can create.
But first....
As most of you know we have moved. I gave up my nice beautiful large messy studio. It was drowning me anyways. The more space I have the more messier I become. The more stuff I collect. More to trip over. More to have to deal with and store. The more guilt when I don't use it up.
I wish I could just buy supplies. I love buying supplies.
But I had a place to go to everyday. I had a reason to get up early and get started with something. That's what kept me going.
Now I live in Buffalo - a town I went to high school in. It feels like home. But so far away from all of my conveniences that I depended on. Well...we still have Cub, Target, etc. What more do I need?
And...it has a market here for arts and crafts. Maybe not the high end stuff but more the upscale garage sale stuff.
It has a lake, bike trails and lots of friends nearby!
I have a nice beautiful house to live in.
The problem is that it is a rental. Can't put too many holes in the walls and there is not a good place to make a mess - except in the basement. I don't have ventilation, lighting, access to a sink and all that good stuff.
There is a reason for everything and there is a plan for me. I just don't know what it is yet. Hopefully by the end of the year it will be apparent!
So stay tuned......
